As of lately ... the loss.

I wasn't too sure if this was something I wanted to publicly talk about, which is why I only briefly mentioned it on my public social media platforms, but to be honest this blog is about my life, my family and everything else that comes with that.  And although these circumstances are somewhat private and not easy to talk about, we can't be ashamed or embarrassed to talk about death.  The passing of a loved one is extremely hurtful, for me personally its hard to process right away.  I tend to shy away from wanting to feel sad because I like to remember them as happy as they were.

But at the end of the day, we can't help but feel.  This week has been a tough one emotionally.  Its been a week of mixed emotions both sad and happy. Earlier this week we received the devastating news of our childhood friend, our best friend and god father to our son had passed to a related car accident.  Like I said, I didn't mention it because truly sharing sad news publicly is not how I want to gain followers or have people like or unlike an image I post.

I've been trying to hold it together and having been busy with life in general has helped this week, with work, the kids, their schedules, sports, planning our blogger meetup coming up this October, putting together a giveaway I had started working on before receiving the devastating news in fact.  

Life unfortunately doesn't stop for moments like this, even though we clearly would want it to just STOP so we can just process.  

I haven't been completely avoiding feeling all the feelings that comes with news like this, my husband and I have taken the time to pray, discuss and just trying to come to terms, but the grieving and heartache is going to be a lifetime just like any loss of a loved one.

As we continue to mourn, grieve and process the loss of our brother, our friend, we're also assisting his family with all the things they could possibly need assistance with in making this process easier for them, if that's even possible.  And life just continues and we have to live it to the fullest, because not only would he want us to celebrate life every day as he did and live in the moments but he would want us to soak it all in, and just live our lives, because we're just not promised tomorrow.

So with that said now I leave you with this.

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

Have a safe and wonderful weekend.

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